The Power Of A Glimmer Of Hope

My guilt overwhelms me—it is a burden too heavy to bear.  My wounds fester and stink because of my foolish sins. I am bent over and racked with pain.  All day long I walk around filled with grief. A raging fever burns within me, and my health is broken. I am exhausted and completely crushed. My groans come from an anguished heart. (Psalm 38:4-8 NLT)

This could be a graphic picture of one who has sunk low in their addiction and been trapped there for some time.  Our inner pain and guilt are heavy.  Our physical bodies are a mess.  Our health is broken.  We are filled with grief over all we have lost.  Exhaustion overwhelms us.  The anguish of what has been, what could have been, and what will never be, fills our minds.

Somehow, even though we felt abandoned by our loved ones and were filled with fear about what our enemies might do to us, a new thought came.  Who knows why?  Did someone offer a prayer on our behalf that God would make Himself known to us?  Did we remember something we heard in a meeting in some soup kitchen when we could hardly stay awake?  Did we remember something from a childhood Sunday School experience?  Who knows how, but the kindness of God seeped into our dark minds, and we began to long for something more than we were currently experiencing.  How amazing it is that God met us in that dark state and has brought us to this day in recovery? The job is not finished but we have another day to go forward in the care of God. 

Prayer:  Loving God, I am so grateful for all you’ve done for me.  I can’t do life on my own.  Today I choose for life with You.  How could I do otherwise?  Amen

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